Will the real Dina, Stand Up?

This is a rough, first draft. It is too long and way too harsh. Will modify this later when I have time to sit and edit. Dina is not this bad. I just did a brain dump and probably over did it, but...



Being on the inside of Dina is like being ensconced in a warm, well-lit coccoon

It is filled with intelligence, wit, charm and sense of a being of higher order being present (Dina)

You feel only the comfort of her warm body pressed next to you and you are surrounded by a love that is only describable as mystical

The other side of Dina

The insecure, non-trusting, wary, prone to value past experiences as predictions for future behavior, where you are guilty and will not be trusted to deliver what you can personally deliver. You are tied to the cross of these men's indiscretions and failures to meet Dina's expectations.

In this landscape, as opposed to the well-lit warm one described above,

It is dark and forebidding with Dina's distrust,

Cold and clammy with her insecurities

forebidding and ferocious in her retaliations for not meeting her requirements and expectations of you.

God forbid and help you should you fail to meet her high standard for your expected production:

Creating wealth to maintain her in her expected fashion in her elder years
What will you get should you meet her expectation

Well of course the well-lit, warm, inviting enclosure of her being around you

And what a special being she is, none finer in all the land

She will buoy you up just being around you

And should she decide to endow you with her charms

You will surely achieve Nirvana here on earth

In her arms and a warm, loving gaze

But don't fuck up, her warth is vengeful and quick



Dina
A person who can give very light compliments
And appear to not really mean them quite well
And is light on her feet regarding not keeping commitments, promises
And not even the most basic standards of common decency towards an unfavored one
She doesn't like deep, personal conversations and commitments, and has a tendency to run away from them when somebody gets personal with her, even her lover
She has a tremendous ability to misunderstand facts and situations
She takes no repsonsibility for her actions when she does
And leaves a trail of destruction a mile wide
In the wake of her inability to understand feelings and people correctly
Some call her a Trainwreck
Others call her Destructive
When she gets involved with someone or something
It is a light commitment. If she can't be successful quickly
with a situation with them, like a work commitment, it's good because she will only stay involved for a short period of time
And then move quickly onto another area of interest, like a bumblebee flitting from
Flower to flower, not being particular caring where she lands
This lack of accountability makes it very hard to know and understand
how and what she thinks about you, yours or anything else about you
And it may not involve you, when once it did
Figure that one out!
She is not one for the long haul
If it can't be done quickly, she is out of there irregardless
She does not understand love
She is in love with being in love
She will despise her lover for expectations not met
Not good for a man to get caught in that trap
Bad for self esteem and self worth!
She has a drifty, flighty mentality that continually
Obstructs her from achieving some important goals
And in the process, she misunderstands and misinterprets
Sometimes even the most basic concepts of life
Thereby leaving those she gets close to burned out and afraid
They get a haunting, eerie look as they fear the next stupid misinterpretation by her, thereby affecting these poor unfortunates even more,
When she mounts one of her clueless attacks on you,
You had better be prepared:
Call a psychologist
Get necessary phone numbers, i.e.suicide prevention, triage and emergency service
Get abilify and clonopin to help you through what is about to become a nightmare,
Where once there was love, passion, kindness and compassion,
Now there is nothingness:
No feel or presence of Dina anywhere
Just a barren empty landscape, with sage rolling around
The emptiness of what was your mind
She is not one for commitments
She committed to being there for the long haul for her lover
But this came to be found to be not true,
he was the only one committed, boy, did he pay for that
He was there for her, but, boy, she was not there for him
She was there for herself only
This is a woman you really don't want to get involved with
Nothing stays stabile and you will not enjoy the roller coaster ride
Of her emotions, problems, perceived problems, idiosynchracies and other
Unimaginable, scary scenarios her fertile mind comes up with
She percieves, without checking with one to get the facts,
And an incorrect perception of you arrives and you are finished,
Until, and if and when, she gets the story straight,
You will be screwed, hardly able to remember your name
Much less what you are doing
You become focused on Dina, she is all you are able to talk about
You discuss her problems she has made you pay for with anyone
You can find and the discussion of her ups and downs goes on forever
You write an incessant amount of blogs, thank God we are saving trees
With all this humongous poring forth of your anguish, pain and distress
She will talk about someone being the love of her lifetime
But she will not understand she said that and ends up leaving her lover
Sometimes for no apparent reason, at least none you are going to get
Out of her because she will not talk to you for any extended period of time
Sometimes as she is saying you are the love of a lifetime
You shuld be scared and concerned
because the axe is about to fall on you and you are actually about to be kicked out the door
And she will do this over and over again
Until you get it
And get out
This is a wonderful woman!
Someone who knew her well for twenty years, recently said
Dina has a lot of 'Issues" - codependency and co-enabling amont them
Dina loves to play games and not be held
Accountable and responsible for her playing and resultant destruction to others she hurts
With her ignorance and inability to tell the people she hurts the truth
Even if who she hurts by her playing gets burned
She appears to have a self-absorption issue
With herself and her problems
And how they affect her,
To the loss of consideration for others around her
Who will pay when Dina has a personal problem?
Well-meaning loving people can suffer ignoble fates
For being involved with Dina when she has a problem
She will not work with anyone to solve the issue
Instead, she will run away and hide
And one will not know
What she is doing
or
How she is handling her problems
Or even the outcome of her handling her problems
And how others are affected by her confused state of mind,
Wielding hurtful solutions around like ball and chain
Smashing all sensibilities, and slaughtering sacred cows
Razing whole civilizations that turn into dust in the wake of her incongruities
They will only feel the lash of her whip-like
Ignoring of them, while she thrashes about
Trying one unsuccessful, clueless idea after another
She will not be there for you,
Despite swearing she will be there for you
Just you wait and see
She will be there for herself, not you, not ever
Or she will shove the unfortunate, poor person
Who gets caught in her gunsights,
Mistakenly involved with her, to stressful heights
To get them to produce the money she has decided she wants
She is proud of her ability in this area and said
All of her men became more financially
Well off because of going with her
And this famous, warm, loving phrase:
"No money, No honey!"
Doesn't that warm the cockles of your heart?
Money is the #1 priority for Dina
Security, provided for by money
Is Dina's #2 priority
After those two priorities,
she doesn't care about too much else or anyone else
And is very flexible in her other choices to prioritize
But God help the person who gets in the way of
Dina's earning money, and thereby securing her security issues
She will drive over them to accomplish
Her fiscal goals, come hell or high water
God help the fate of an unfortunate lover
Who dared think he could be her #1,
While being in the state of low funds
He will be kicked to the curb repeatedly,
Until he either gets the money or gets out
She has no mercy, and she can be fatally vicious
To one's sensibilities and potential of staying sane
God help the poor wretch,
When she gets an impression of one's failure
To meet her standards
She will give you a little time,
But before the deadline, she will probably cut you off
You will feel a sense of being hung over a cliff and being dropped into the abyss of your unfortunate mistakenness. A sense of extreme loneliness sets in,
of being stepped on
And a sense of low worth because she will not
Contact you, acknowledge your existence in any way
except by sucking you through a straw
Namely, by only communicating with you via email,
When she has the time and when she feels like it,
You will feel the emptiness of the loss of Dina,
With all her charms, intelligence, wit and people-pleasing abilities
You could have been engaged to her a couple of weeks ago
And now it's as if she doesn't know you
Except when she checks to see
If you have resolved her issue with you
Ruthless, Mean and lacking in the most basic of social graces
When she perceives you are not meeting her requirements
God Help You
Best you meet her expectations in the timeframe she expects
Or suffer her wrath